Near you always.

Please don't say I love you,
those words touch me much too deeply
they make my core tremble
Don't think you realize the effect you have over me
And please don't look at me like that
It just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow
And please don't touch me like that
makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
Please don't come so close
it just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't bring me flowers
they only whisper the sweet things you'd say
Don't try to understand me
your hands already know too much anyway
It makes me want to make you near me always
And when you look in my eyes
please know my heart is in your hands
It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms
you have complete power over me
So be gentle if you please, 'cause
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
Babe, and it makes me want to make you near me always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always

You're just too marvellous.

Again, you've made my day.

You're a really nice guy, dear.

And I'm going to miss you much.

So I shall bid adieu to you.

See you soon.

HUGS!<3

Me and my boyfriend.

I've got a boyfriend now
He's my dearest pal
He'll always catch me when I fall
He's always there when I call

I've got a boyfriend now
He always talks so loud
Even in a crowded house
He always shows what he got

I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry
I will keep you in my memories

When my boyfriend smiles
The world seems all mine
And all the days seems truly fine
Make me reach up for the sky

Me and my boyfriend now
We're moving so slow
If you really want to know
Come on and join with the show

I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry
I will keep you in my memories

When I'm blue, feel so lonely
No one sits here right beside me
I'm gonna call you just to;
"Hurry, come and see me. It's so scary and I need you desperately"

I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry
I will keep you in my memories

I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry
I will keep you in my memories
My imaginary boyfriend.:)
Since I'm picky and fickle.
Today's Sunday.
What a nice day to slack.
Had a pretty emo conversation with my friend yesterday.
Kinda know him more.
He's a nice guy indeed.

Retail therapy.

I have been feeling kinda emo these days.
Falling in and out of love.
Has Rosey fallen into the bottomless pit?
I don't think so.
Rosey knows how to control herself pretty well.
Though she admits that she finds it hard to control her emotions,
and she is unable to do so.
Once again,
I think he's someone that I would go for.
A trustworthy guy.
A reliable one.
I feel safe whenever I'm with him.
But then, again,
he's not mine.
Oh well,
I don't really care.
As long as he'll be there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on.
As long as he'll be there when I need someone to rant to.
I think it's more than enough.
Since I shouldn't expect anything from you.
Sorry for being random,
retail therapy really helps!
I feel so much better now.:)

SHOPPING! My favourite thing to do,

when I'm feeling down, feeling emo.

Retail therapy really helps.

Just hope that my future husband will be able to stand my shopping hobby.

And hope that he is a nice and generous one. LOL.

Rosey and her wildest dreams.:)

I wonder.

If I have never met you,
would my life be colourful?
If I have never get close to you,
would my life be better?
Sometimes I think that you're so close to me,
so near that my fingers are unable to touch you.
Sometimes I think that you're not even there,
so far that I can't even sense your whereabout.
I wonder why I still stay put.
I wonder why I don't move on.
I wonder why I dare not look back.
I wish to walk on, create more memories,
shelf the past, and just, remember them,
leaving all the bad things behind.
I wish to let you go, to the place where you should be.
Again, you're never mine.
So letting you go should not be an issue.
But then, this heart will ache,
if I really let you go, leaving me on my own.
But if I don't,
I'm lying to myself.
You don't belong to me.
Oh well.
I think I shall just concern about my studies.
Let go all the temptations.
Again, it's almost impossible.
I can't really control my feelings.
I just hope that whatever happens,
you'll still be there for me.
Cause I don't know how would I be without you.

I may be greedy, may be wanting everything that I can have.

But one thing for sure,

I may give up everything for happiness.

One day I will grow old,

and I don't wanna spend my rotting days on my own.

When I'm old, I wish I can spend my time by just,

doing meaningful things with my partner.

But then, will I be satisfied with this kind of life?

Maybe yes, maybe no.

One fine Thursday.

Almost late for school this morning.
Was kinda messy today,
there's no time left to comb my hair nicely.
My bad.
Forgot to set the alarm the day before.
Luckily, I woke up 15 minutes before 7.
Was not late for school.
What an achievement.
Voiced up my anger,
felt good,
though there's a possibility,
that I might get whacked by the class.
Life was great today.
Had lunch with my classmates.
Took some pics with my darlings.
Was so happy to have received so many texts from you.:)
And you've promised to take me out.
Love it so much.
Today's weather was a nice one too.
Today's just a fine Thursday.
A lovely Thursday.

You're the smile on my face.

You never fail to brighten up my day.

You're just...

Oh well.

Too wonderful.

And I feel safe in your arms.<3

A time for everything.

"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."

SInce, there's a time when you're up and a time when you're down,

you can always lean on me when you need a shoulder to lean on.

I know you're strong, but then, it doesn't mean that,

you don't need a person to go right?

I just wanna tell you that you always look good in my eyes .:)

I salute you.

And maybe that's why you're special, baby.

Love is in the air, though...

I know that life is not so beautiful now,
especially life in the college.
Many of us are so busy with studies,
cca, everything about school.
And we neglect almost everybody around us?
Not only that, we also have neglected,
the pleasure in doing many things.
For example, bathing or showering,
to me, this is not just an act of cleansing yourself,
but it is also a pleasing activity, cools me down and
makes me more relax.
Another thing is eating,
it seems that people in the current society,
just eat for the sake of eating?
I long for the days,
where everyone can just enjoy whatever they do.
The days where work and studies are not the number one priority.
The days where people can just enjoy their leisure time without doing work.
It seems that time has passed more and more quickly these days.
I don't think we should blame the time.
It's we, we have made everything become so instant.
Oh well.
I just hope there'll be a day like that for me.
So I can be carefree and just take pleasure in everything I do.

Though life is pretty sucks these days,

I am pretty happy with the fact that I am loved,

being taken care of.

Love is in the air.<3

I hope you won't change, though everybody changes.

Your love is better than everything.

Addictive, like chocolate, but zero in calorie.(:

I feel like crying.

I am just tired,
tired of almost everything,
about school.
Sometimes I just don't feel like going,
some people around me are just,
really disappointing?
Maybe I expect too much from them.
Maybe I am just...too demanding.
I've endured for about ten weeks,
which I will consider as a pretty short period.
I am not a superwoman,
I am just,
a girl,
who still refuses to grow up.
But at least,
I know what I have to do,
I know what I MUST be doing,
I am aware of the consequences.
Sadly, people around me are just,
most of them I would say,
just can't be bothered.
They set their impressive goals,
but then,
have they asked themselves that they have to work hard,
in order to achieve?
Oh well.
I shall just think for myself I guess.
Shall not bother too much bout others.
They just don't care...
So why should I care?
Consider myself unlucky then.
I just feel like crying today.
Crying over...small foolish things,
according to some people.
They're just small foolish things,
but they affect me.
That's why I feel like crying.
If I can choose to see only all the good things,
and just pretend that all the bad things do not exist.
I guess my life will be more beautiful.
However, in real life,
I have to face the reality.
Life is not a bed of roses.

Thanks for listening to me,

when you're so busy with your work.

I appreciate that a lot.

Since I mostly rant to you.

Bet you've endured so much.

Baby, thanks for everything.

You're really my pillow and my bolster.:)

I miss you.

What a lovely Saturday.

I woke up pretty early,
had a lovely breakfast,
toast and bacon.
Managed to revised my work,
and finished some assignments.
Then I went out,
had lunch,
with my cousins.
Walked around for quite some time,
all I saw were just shops,
crowded, messy, and just,
unpleasant to the eyes.
Didn't manage to get anything for myself.
Wandered alone for a while.
Then had dinner with him.
Was pretty contented.
It has been a long time since we saw each other.
What a lovely Saturday.
I saved my money by not shopping,
and I got to see my baby.

Teddies don't hug back.

But you'll hug me back.(:

Thanks for your time today.

I do appreciate it.

You've brightened up my day.

And you've made me smile.<3

I can't get enough of you.

Loving you is like biting the best chocolate,
that the world could ever have.
Sweet, bitter, minty, crunchy, etc.
Baby, you're mainly sweet,
that's why I couldn't get enough of you.
You never fail to make me happy.
Baby, you're really lovely.
You shower me with care and love that I need.
You're too good to be true.
My angel.
My sweety pie.
You're such a lovely guy.
Just, you're not that agressive.
But who gives a damn.
As long as I am what I am when I am with you,
it tells me a lot about you.
Baby, baby,
you got me on my knees.
I think you've stolen my heart.

I love chocolate to the bits.
It makes me high.
Baby, I guess you're like chocolate.
Cure me while I'm bored.
Make me high when I'm down.
Chocolate, let it be sweet or bitter.
I still love it.:)

You got me.

Baby, knowing you is like,
a gift from God, a miracle,
I would say,
like fated?
You are really different from the rest,
you know me the best.
I am glad to know,
you do take notice of every single thing I do.
You do read me like a book don't you?
You make me love you more.
More and more.
You got me.
I am just too glad.
I am flying up way there now.
Sitting on a rainbow.
Have got the world on a string.
Baby, you are sweet.
Should I go further?
Or should I just let the nature takes its course?
Though somehow you are close to me.
I dare not move closer,
I am afraid that I will lose you if I do so.
Oh well.
Baby, it's up to you.
But I warned you,
I don't want to get hurt.
Congratulations,
you've got me.=)

Baby, you're too wonderful.

I guess words aren't enough to describe you.

You're just too good to be true.

Oh dear, you've made me fly up high...

And you better be there to catch me when I fall.

Hahahaha.

I love YOU.

Not strong, yet unbroken.

I am just an ordinary girl.
I am not strong,
weak indeed.
I cry, many times.
I laugh, almost all the time.
Pretty balanced right?
But I am confessing to you,
that I am weak.
But I am unbroken.
I am not that weak.
Whenever I fall down,
I'll look at the sky,
the sky above my head,
and I'll get myself up,
and walk on.
Even though the sky turns grey,
I will still walk on.
Whatever it takes,
I still have to walk on, right?
And baby,
the path we choose is not always beautiful.
Sometimes we made wrong choices,
I wonder why is it so.
Is it cause curiosity kills the cat?
Is it cause you have no choice?
Many causes aren't it.
Whichever I take, I walk on it, and I end it.
And then I start with a new one.
Even though I'm dying,
keep on ranting,
lamenting,
I don't give up.
Baby, even though I'm not strong,
I am unbroken.

Listen,

you're wanted.

You're somebody.

Even though you're ordinary.

You're always my angel.

My guardian angel.

Grace Kelly.

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

Baby, I've been watching you from afar.

You seemed to be so indulged in your problems.

Why don't you take a break?

Just forget it for a while.

Look at it from a different angle.

It is always easier to be said than to be done.

But baby, try your best.

Smile more.

I know you're not a broken man.

Try your best in everything.

Dear love.

Dear love,
why you always appear,
when I am not expecting?

Dear love,
why you are always beautiful,
when I expect it to be ordinary?

Dear love,
why you are always painful,
when I expect it to be enjoyable?

Oh love,
let me tell you one thing,
one word to describe you,
GREAT.

Love, you are great.
To me, you are like a medicine.
Useful yet harmful.

Dear love,
I think my heart,
has been stolen, completely,
by him.

Will he break my heart,
and crushed it into pieces?
Will he take care of it,
and nourished it with love and care?

I do not know.
And I do not want to know.
Reality is harsh, most of the time.
I will just blend in,
the state of uncertainty.

Your love keeps me alive,

You're my everything.

Though I may not sacrifice everything for you.

You're important to me dear.

But remember, even though I'm deeply in love,

I'm still a practical person,

I may give up love for something better.

Love me, or leave me.

This question will never be fully answered.

A Kiss.

A kiss is just a kiss,
if there's emptiness in it.
A kiss is felt,
if there's love in it.
Oh well.
Let it be love or lust.
As long as there's a flame in it,
it's meaningful.
May be hurting,
may be pleasing.
I don't care.
A kiss, to me,
is a form of affection.
A form of communication.
A kiss after a quarrel,
will reunite a couple.
A kiss after long time no see,
will reflect how much you miss each other.
A kiss after a cry,
will show how much you care.
A kiss from the one you fancied,
will lead you to the wildest imagination,
build your dream on.
Last but not least,
a meaningful kiss will stay in your mind forever,
even when you're already old.

CAUTION: NEVER KISS AND TELL. IT'S SO UNGLAM!=)

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon’s sparkling, so kiss me

P.S. Baby, I love red roses too.:)

Never let me go.

You're still chaining me,
clinging closely onto me.
Why? Why?
Making my life miserable.
Are you that insensitive?
How many times I have to repeat myself?
Are you that heartless?
I was once a flower that bloomed in the winter,
because you were the sunlight and the water that feeded me.
You were once the reason why I kept on living this life.
Remember that day.
Remember.
That day you told me that you would never let me go.
Never let me go.
Despite anything.
You broke the promise,
you left, without a single word.
Why on earth you're still chaining me?
Let me go.
Let me go, to wherever I want to be.
Since we are never bound by anything significant.
Stop haunting me, will you?
I've erased you little by little.
I need to get my own life.
I need to walk on.
I know I have stabbed your heart,
with a very sharp knife.
You've done that to me too, remember?
So it's fair and square now.
I bet you are belonged to someone now.
Baby, please let me go.
Or else, I will never move on.
Stop chaining me.
Let me go.
Even though I know you will never let me go.
Please, let me go.

Let me go.

You and I will be happier.

Believe me.

We'll be back together if only our destinies say so.

Go away.

You are not worthy anymore.

Unforgettable.

Unforgettable, thats what you are.
Unforgettable though near or far.
Like a song of love that clings to me.
How the thought of you does things to me.
Never before has someone been more.

Unforgettable in every way.
And forever more, thats how youll stay.
Thats why, darling, its incredible.
That someone so unforgettable.
Thinks that I am unforgettable too.

Unforgettable in every way.
And forever more, thats how youll stay.
Thats why, darling, its incredible.
That someone so unforgettable.
Thinks that I am unforgettable too.

You're unforgettable.

Always be remembered wherever I'm going.

Even though one day,

I will be completely forgotten.

Of course I will be there, alive,

in your memories.

Hence, I am unforgettable too.=)

A bad girl.

Tell me baby, am I a bad girl?
Am I a bad bad girl?
I guess I've been playing with fire,
just to fulfil my desire.
I am a bad girl with expensive toys.
Consists of only boys?
In my heart, I don't want to do any harm.
All I want is just, warmth.
Guess I've been toying around.
But I don't think I've been fooling around.
I just know I deserve the best.
That's why I will pick only one, and leave the rest.
Cause I want to be loved,
and I want to have someone to love.
I will choose,
and choose.
But then, I will never go and find love,
or else, it won't be called falling in love.
I'll just walk on where my destiny brings me to,
hence, I will be less stressed too.
And I will be able to smile,
And the sun will then smile,
to me.
To a huge degree.
Since I'm only eighteen,
it's alright for me to be a bad girl.
By the end of nineteen,
then I shall change, from a bad girl,
to a lady, a respectable one.
And I will be someone who is worth to be won.

A lady in the little black dress,

with a string of pearls.

That's how I will be dressed in,

during parties.

Classic look,

sleek, and elegant.

And I'll be the highly respectable icon in the society too.

Lazy Sunday.

What a lazy Sunday.
I woke up wishing you were here, by my side.
So you'd be the first person I see,
when I opened up my eyes.
Started my Sunday with a game of tennis.
Still, you're all over my mind.
You're too hard to be forgotten.
Maybe you're just too amazing.
Had a hearty lunch with my cousins in the afternoon.
Sunday is always a day with the cousins.
What a lazy Sunday.
I spent few hours having a classic pedicure.
I also watched a movie from youtube after that.
Today is my lazy day I guess.
I don't do much.
Except reading my econs text book and notes.
However I am glad,
cause I know how to laze around on SUNDAYS.=D
I love spending my SUNDAYS mindlessly.

You've made me smile more,

as the days go on.

Even though time passes so quickly these days,

I'm glad, to know that you're always there.

Thank you dear.

You've made me feel secure.=)

Well done.

Today, I just wanna crap.

Hello guys.
It's been a long time since I crapped right.
Hahahaha.
As an appetizer, lols.
I start the post of May with a crappy post,k?=)
Bet all of you are waiting for me to crap.
I've been known as a girl who describes guy in one word, 'HOT'.
Whenever I am absent from school, the girls will miss me.
Hahahaha. They'll be missing my voice screaming the word 'HOT'.
Especially my dear Hui Zyi. Hahahaha.
Seems like everyone knows whenever I skip school.
WHY OH WHY?
Lol. Even my form teacher notices it. Oh My GOSH!
But it's cool isn't it.=P
All my dears and darlings love me.
Today I saw two teddy bears at school.
One is the cute one, my class teddy bear, Joseth.Hahahaha.
The other one is the fierce teddy bear, Shaun or Shawn.
I think he's a bit HOT. But then not as hot as my DARLINGS.
Anw, ruggers are always hot.*winks.
Thats the crap bout the boys for today.
Oops. Guess I forgot to include another hot guy that I just knew.
Sherwin, the RJC water polo guy.=P
Knew him from my RJ dears.Hahahaha.
OMG. I crapped a lot bout boys.
Now I shall move to what happened during maths tutorial.
Geraldine and Yee Ling keep on laughing can.
Thought there's something weird or what.
I'm pretty slow.
Actually they're laughing at the tutor's tone or voice.
I think both of you are right.Hehehehe.
Ended school pretty early today.WHEE.
Gotta go back to read my lovely econs text book.
Ciao.=)

Summer is coming.

Flowers everywhere.

How I wish I am one of them.

I will be smiling throughout the season, along with the sun.

I am a flower with thorns.

I am not easy to be tamed.

Try your best and I may be yours.