Another random post again.

My sleep was disrupted, by a nightmare.
Woke up pretty early today, which was not a norm,
as I usually wake up pretty late on Saturdays.
Did what I should do in the morning.
Laundry, household chores.
And most importantly, tutorials.
Nothing unusual happened for the rest of the day.
Last day of the month of March.
April is coming, which means my birthday is nearing.
Some people are looking forward to their birthdays.
But somehow, I just don't want to get older.
The older I get, the more responsible I shall be.
Sometimes, I just refused to grow up.
I just wanna play, enjoy life, and just do whatever I want.
But then, I know, I'm going to be old soon.
Gotta start to learn to be independent.
Set the goal that I wanna achieve.
Hope to be financially independent as soon as possible.
Earn my 1st million before I hit 30? Pretty realistic.

Sometimes I just wanna be a child again.

Nothing much to think about.

Nothing much to consider before doing anything.

Not many responsibilities.

Even though I am old, I believe that the child in me will always be there.

Turning 18 soon, what a pain.

Random post.

It's just an ordinary Thursday, it rained in the middle
of the day, without any prior notice. I was then in the literature class, reading
a poem written by a man about his wife. How hard has he tried
to understand his woman's mind. It's true that women are just
unpredictable. Women have mood swings. Women are like weathers.
Rain, cloudy, sunny, downpour, etc.
Weathers describe the moods. Women are just difficult
to be learnt, completely. Somehow, I do feel lucky as I have
a man who is able to understand me, completely. I, myself, am a woman.He is just
wonderful. Too wonderful too be true. But then, he is a rare one.
It's like looking for a needle in the haystack.
Therefore, I treasure him, since that day. That day
when I realized that he did know me completely.
Just hope that he'll be mine one day.
But it doesn't really matter, as to love someone doesn't mean to have someone.
To love someone means to let him go, set him free,
if he's yours, he'll come back to you, for all time, he'll be yours.


As long as he needs me,
I know where I must be.
I'll cling on steadfastly,
As long as he needs me.
As long as life is long,I'll love him right or wrong.
And somehow, I'll be strong,
As long as he needs me.
If you are lonely.
Then you will know.
When someone needs you,
You love them so.
I won't betray his trust.
Though people say I must.
I've got to stay true, just
As long as he needs me.

Tuesday report.

Another boring Tuesday.
Went for my mother tongue tutorial today.
It was indeed a disaster.
I am here not to offend arts people, but majority of the arts people in my mother tongue class are not that bright?
Not that bright in the sense that they are arts people, they are supposedly the people who are better in languages and humanities, right?
However, by having Perdana in class at least, has brightened my day. He is one of the smart asses who comes to my school.
I don't know why he come to SAJC while he actually can make it to NJC.
At least, we share the same mind.
However, my class, in general, is not bad.
I have smart Hui Zyi, cute Yee Ling, and my dear Pei Li.
They do really help me in encouraging me to study and work hard.
And thanks to my good friends in HCI and ACSI, I'm now more motivated to do my own studies. I'm not a mugger cause I do play hard too.
I'm not afraid to do work and study anymore.
Even sometimes that mean less time for sleeping.
I admit that I love sleeping. Who doesn't?
There's one 'cool' thing that I learnt today.
The question asked was indeed a profound question.
"Why you study a certain subject?", be it Mathematics, Literature, Chemistry, Physics, etc.
The answer was to make sense of something.
"We study Mathematics to make sense of numbers and figures." And the answer given by the teacher went on and on.
That question did wake me up. Lols.
Anw, enough of story telling or ranting for today.
Report ends here. Hahahaha.
Thanks to those who texted me today.
You all indeed have brightened my day by a lot. Hahahaha.

I will sleep in peace, if you sleep next to me.

You are the first one I wish to see when I open up my eyes early in the morning.

I wish I will find you soon.

You're now out of sight.

I feel so insecure whenever the sky is dark and it's time for me to sleep.

The Choice, by Dorothy Parker.

He'd had given me rolling lands,
Houses of marble, and billowing farms,
Pearls, to trickle between my hands,
Smouldering rubies, to circle my arms.
You - you'd only a lilting song,
Only a melody happy and high,
You were sudden and swift and strong -
Never a thought for another had I.

He'd have given me laces rare,
Dresses that glimmered with frosty sheen,
Shiny ribbons to wrap my hair,
Horses to draw me, as fine as a queen.
You - you'd only to whistle low,
Gayly I followed wherever you led.
I took you, and let him go -
Someone ought to examine my head.

Choosing a partner for life is difficult.

You gotta make the right choice.

So you won't regret later.

Choose the one that is willing to take care of you when,

you're not young and pretty anymore.

Decide wisely.=)

I hate my new timetable.

I just received my new timetable this morning.
I hate it a lot, and really hate it till now.
Nobody likes it.
I have to end sch like almost 5 pm everyday, like WTH.
Today it rained so heavily, and worsened by the stupid wind which kept on blowing.
I nearly spoiled my umbrella.
One thing good about rainy day, especially like today is that you can get to know a new friend.
Today I was talking to this girl who I didn't know, cause she smiled to me and asked me whether we should cross the road together.
When it rains, everybody becomes friendly?Lols.
At least we have a common topic to talk about.
The second nice thing was that today I got to try out the finger print thingy attendance taking system.
It's quite cool. Hahahaha.
You have to clock in before 7.25 am and can only clock out after 12.45pm. LOLS.
So can't really skip classes and leave earlier. Hahahaha.
Another one cool thing that I'm proud of is today I managed to mug during my break in the library.
Thats it for today.
Gotta go to rewrite my econs essay.
Ciao.
Rosey.=)

Even though I know he is able to take care of me for all time,

I dare not go any further.

Or else, I'll lose him.

Dear God, I hope that you will ligth the path I'm walking on,

let me be with the one who I can spend my whole life with,

and the one who is willing to spend his whole life with me.

Amen.

I love my day.

Went out with one of my classmates today,
had lunch and shopped at Kinokuniya.
Late afteroon, I went with my darling Gracia,
I missed her so much.
Finally we went out together.
We shopped, we walked, we gossipped, and we have our eyebrows trimmed. *winks
I bought a new umbrella today.
A pink umbrella.
We told each other a lot of stuff.
And on our way home, we met Joshua.
He's still the same mugger we know.Lols.
No different even though he's not wearing his glasses.
He's still the mugger.
Good night world.
God, thanks for today.

A lovely Friday.

What a lovely Friday.
Went out with my friends to have some finger food.
Attended all my lectures, without falling asleep.
Pretty proud about that fact.
Nothing did really amaze me today except,
a book on philosophy,
which I found in the library.
It's a book which talks about life.
About courage, sorrow, love, death, hope, betrayal, blame, religion, and depression.
One interesting quote that I've found is a quote from Sophocles on happiness.
Sophocles said, "Happiness depends on wisdoms."
I made an effort to think bout it for a while.
I felt that what he said was pretty true in real life.
There goes my Friday.

I wish that you will never leave me.

Wish that I'll always see you whenevever I wake up from my sleep.

I'll be soulless if you leave me alone.

Why am I so dependent on you?

Am I just an idiot?

What a happy day.

Thursday, yes, today is Thursday.
I began my day with a smile on my face.
Today was a happy day.
Finally I got to know my class people face to face.
It's amazing to find out that they're nice people indeed.
Another thing that made my smile even wider was a text,
a text from my good friend.
Enjoyed my day today.
Though it's long and hectic.
Tomorrow is Friday, yay!
But then school ends at 3pm for me.
Never mind.
Friday will still be Friday.
Have to enjoy it.

I have found someone who can make me smile.

But, is he willing to make me smile more?

Is he willing to take care of me?

Those are the questions waiting to be answered.

You're all over my mind.

When will you be mine?

The other side of me.

Today, I was sitting quietly inside the cultural centre,
giving my almost 100% attention to the lecturer.
It was a lecture on social issues.
The lecturer showed the students a video on what was actually happening in modern families.
Both parents working, while the chidren are left on their own.
Somehow I could sense how did the girl inside the clip feel.
Lonely.
Lacking care from her parents.
She smoked.
She drugged.
And she fooled around with guys.
Thank God that even though I'm lonely,
I have never done these things.
I just need someone to watch over me.
To take care of me, to love me, to complete me.
But where can I find one who is willing to do so.
Sometimes I just wish I can let people know what I am feeling.
Deep inside my heart, I'm empty.

I'm incomplete.

I'm empty.

I need someone who is willing to complete me.

When will the one come to me?

I'm still waiting .

Waiting in emptiness and loneliness.

There goes my Tuesday.

Tuesday, the second day of the week.
Just the second day of term 2.
Now I've got the real feeling of JC life.
Lectures are like never ending.
Tutorials are coming next week.
Essays are piling up.
Gotta be more hardworking, or else,
I'll be left behind.
Some people are just so clever,
I'm pretty amazed with the boy I've met during Physics lecture.
He is like doing all the questions painlessly?
OH MY GOD!
I feel so lousy.
I feel like I'm damn stupid.
Think I better mug more.
There goes my Tuesday.
Hope tomorrow will be a better day for me.

Sometimes I just wish that someone will catch me when I fall.

Maybe I'm just too weak to stand on my own.

Though I do look tough outside.

All I put on is a mask.

Very few have managed to see my true-self.

I wish I can have somoene to push me up whenever I am down.

I think I'm in love.

It started with a few flirtatious messages sent by me.
I made the first move.
I introduced myself.
He finally asked me out.
And then I met him face to face.
He is not buff.
He is not tall.
He is not tan.
He is just not my type, I mean his outlook.
However,
He is charming.
He is gentle.
He is smart, philosophical.
And I just love the way he looks at me.
He is able to make me laugh.
He is so adorable.
His personalities are just great.
Oh my god!
I think I'm in love.
With this guy, who is just not my type, physically.
But his personal qualities, are just too good to be true.
He's all over my mind.
I'm missing him now.
Though I've just met him once.
He's too wonderful.
I can't wait to see him again.
I think I'm in love.

I'm missing you.

Wish to see you soon.

I'm starting to become pretty sentimental again.

Guess that Rosey will always be Rosey.

A dreamer.