Bite, bite.

I BITE.
Yes I can bite, everybody knows that Rosey can bite.
There are many ways to define the action bite I guess. Hahaha.
Not only that, there are also many types of bites too.
Oh well. What's the type of bite I'm talkin bout here? Go figure.
Doughnut made my day!=D
Chocolate peanut butter donut. So yummy.
Today is the Teachers' Day Celebration, no lectures, no tutorials.
We just came to school to enjoy ourselves.
After school was outing, met up with my secondary school friends.
We watched ratatouille, a quite good movie, considering that it is a cartoon.
Then when I reached home, I saw an online message from someone that I've been waiting for days?
RARs! But it's ok. It's alright. My pal gonna be back soon, with doughnuts and chocolates!XD
Oh well. That's all for today? I suppose? Nothing much in my brain now.
Kinda dead today!:(
Oh well, maybe you're right, I am still not over you, but then, you're not the guy I wanna be with.
P.S. Bluberry cake from Geraldine made me happy!:D Love ya dear!

Eating disorder? A lost friend found? A big green crocodile? Mixed emotions!

BOO! BOO! Here I am talking bout eating disorder. Hahaha. I admit that I have an eating disorder kay. But then, it is still an okay one. Hahaha. Not yet developed into anorexia or bulimia or wadever. Hahaha. And fyi, I am not skinny! Hahahaha. So I am not at the extreme yet, and will never be. Or else, my darlings and my PARENTS will KILL me. Ok. Let's start. How do I define eating disorder? To me, eating disorder simply means that you just don't feel like eating, or you vomit out whatever you put into your mouth? Eating disorder is really different from irregular eating pattern. But then, my DOCTORS argued with me. They said whatever it is that can lead to GASTRIC problem is called eating disorder. WTH! Ok ok. Today I received a pretty long lecture from both my doctor and the nurse there. I was actually looking for my doc, for some regular check up, to get some supplements. Then what happened? He caught me vomitting! WHOA! Then yeah, it's caused by the acid reflux thingy. I am suffering from Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease(GERD). I have been referred to three doctors and ALL of them said that it is kinda curable, but it takes a LONG time. HELP! I think I am really so stubborn. And as a results, my doctor gave me a box of granola bars. XD. Hahaha. He forced me to take at least two bars every morning. He threatened me by telling my parents if I come to see him again, with no improvement. This is party caused he had drawn up a table for me, to plan my meal well and he had given me a BETTER medicine, which means higher dosage! DAMN! That's the bad news for today. Good news is that erm... Hahahaha. How should I start the good news? Hm. I've found my long lost friend online through friendster. And guess what. He has changed a lot. He is not the clumsy guy I used to know. He has become more HANDSOME! And guess what he is in RJC now. OMG! How can a silly and clumsy boy changed a lot in just 4 years? I so wanna see him soon. Oh well. He's not my ex and not my whatever for your info! He is just my childhood friend. :). Oh ya, he used to be my neighbour too, back in indo. He's a sailor, pretty hot with his tan and his posture. I shall go and take a picture with him if I happen to date him out. Hahahaha. Thats one piece of good news k. The other unexpected thing is that the BIG GREEN CROCODILE gave me a ring yesterday! He sounded pretty alright actually, kinda different from the ones I know. Hahahaha. Oh well. He teased me A LOT. Typical crocodile! A big green one! Hahaha. I BITE too kays. Not only you can BITE! P.S. I am so happy that you called k! If you happen to read my blog, I think you know what I mean by NO BIGGIE!:P It is called REVERSED PSYCHOLOGY! Hahahaha. I just don't know why you called me. To make me DREAM OF YOU during lectures? Hahahaha. That's what you wanted to achieve I know. Hahahaha. Too bad! I am not that BO LIAO. Hahahaha. Ok ok. You've made me happy and made me SMILE. You scored a 1. =D. Now I know why you keep teasing me with the phrase "NO BIGGIE". Hahahaha. Just cause you gonna be cut off from any communication from me for few days? To me it is still no biggie lah. Few days only! Won't die one. Hahahaha. Oh kays. Time to back to MUG. =). One message to you, some lines are better not to be crossed.;)I am somehow SAD because of my grandma's condition yet I am also HAPPY at the same time,
HAPPY cause some people do know how to make me smile! And God loves me! He somehow led me to my long-lost friend.
Oh well. My emotional status now is a mixed one. Hahaha. In the middle, neither high nor low.
I learned one thing today, which is . . . SECRET! Don't tell you. Hahaha.
I'd keep it to myself. I learned it from my doctor. Hahaha.
Four days aren't long enough for me to say I miss you.
What about four months? Maybe yes. Hahaha.
To Kenneth, good luck k! All the best.=)
To Wen Yi, you are _ _ _ _ _! (Go fill in urself.) ;)
To my SLEEPY friend, mug hard k! =D
To DARLINGS! Esp yee ling! Yes Yes. Eating excursions! Hahaha. Love ya!=D
THATS ALL FOR NOW. I am off to sleep. Hahaha. Forget bout mugging. Hahaha.

Why why why.

Why you're STILL standing there?
Why is it so hard for me to get you out of my HEAD?
Don't you know that you're annoying?
You really are.
You have never ever been nice to me, all the way.
And why you're still haunting me?
In reality and in my sleep?
In reality, you always call me occasionally, what's the motive?
Not only that, now you appear again in my sleep,
not once, not twice, but many times.
Too many that I can't remember!
I hate you to the core.
You have been lying to me all the time,
you have been making me feel so bad,
whenever I am with you.
Who are you?
You are so different from the one I used to know.
You have changed so much.
I've let you go.
I've called it an end.
Why can't you just move on and just forget me?
Or maybe you should forget all the SWEET memories?
I have gotten over you, I have accepted it,
I have moved on.
Forgotten about you and etc etc etc.
I am not missing you, not even thinking bout you anymore.
You're the past,
you're just a piece of history.
Oh well, don't put me under your spell anymore.
This time, it won't work.
And it will never work again.
So please, leave me alone,
let me live my own life.

You're just one of of many pieces of my memories.

Memories, still in the making, so you aren't that significant, are you?

Let me go, move on, you'll be much happier.

I am just your past, you're my past too.

That's all. Nothing much need to be said anymore.

Go, go, go!

I don't wish to see you anymore.

What an unexpected day...

Early morning, I woke up with a happy feeling,
hoping that today would be a good day, after the commotion,
that happened in my class yesterday.
Oh well, the issue is still hot till today.
Not that my class is really bad, my class is,
actually made up of very different and unique,
individuals.
All of them are pretty nice actually.
And even though until now I am still not that attached to my class,
I will miss them, if we are separated.
Not that I wish for this thing to happen,
but then, once again, if we as a whole class,
are not moving as one,
this will definitely happen, inescapble.
I don't wanna face with this situation next year.
Sorry to rant so much today.
This is because I realize and feel that, we are kinda childish as the students,
how many of us are independent learners?
How many of us will really do our work on time?
How many of us really prepare for tutorials?
I myself don't do that all the time, what a shame!
We are supposed to be responsible for our own learning,
why should we blame the teachers? Why should we blame the environment?
And I am shameful, cause I myself, expect people around me to change,
but what have I been doing? Have I changed for better?
I think the first resolution is to change myself,
I mean changing my bad habits, and try to focus more on my studies.
I don't wanna get retain seriously, and,
I've promised my teachers I will do well for PROMOS.
I swear I'd perform up to expectations.
I won't let you down anymore.
Once is enough and it will be the first and the last.
Today my form teacher was giving us a scolding,
but it was meant to wake us up,
so I didn't mind at all.
She's a great teacher, one of the greatest one I ever met so far.
And she's leaving me? Like soon?
I am so gonna miss her, but then like what my brother said before,
let go the past so you'll progress and move on.
Nothing great happen to day except that, I experienced an ephipany while I was sipping my favorite cup of coffee and thinking of what I should do for my class. Somehow, I love my class,
it's just, oh well, no more further comments.
Darlings and dears, I hope that all of us will still be together next year.
Not will, we must stay together!
That's all for now.
Actually, I feel like crying just now.
Though I know that she's leaving us like weeks ago.
One lesson learnt, we must stay together as one,
so we can soar up high and reach for the sky.=)
It's more than you, it is more than me

Dedicated to my beloved class 07A07
No matter what we are, we are a family
This dream is for all of us, this one can be real,
and you cant stop us now because of how you feel..
It's more than you, It is more than me
Whatever dreams we have, there for the family,
we're not alone anymore now there are others there,
and that dreams big enough for all of us to share,
so dont think that your going, your not going anywhere,
your staying and taking your share, and if
you get afraid again, I'll be there..,
We are a family like a giant tree branching out towards the sky,
we are a family we are so much more than just you and I we are a family like a giant tree, growing stronger, growing wiser, we are growing free..we need you..we are a family..

Random Sunday!

10 weird/random things about me:
1. One random thing for today! Today I found my eyecandy's friendster! I hit the jackpot man. Oh well. Sillyboy, you are endangered!:P *HINTS!
2. I love PHYSICS! Not a subject that is loved by girls in general. PROUD of it k! Hahaha.
3. Oh ya! I am addicted to TRAVIS, like out of the blue? Don't know how and don't know why? But travis rocks!
4. I love SHOPPING to the core and addicted to online shopping. Hahahaha.
5. I always dress up like an adult, which obviously makes me look older right? But then I just don't get it why I love to dress up like that.
6. I am easily pleased. Let me see hot guys! I'd be smiling for the whole day. Giggling like a silly school girl.
7. I always chase the guy I like, those who chase me, usually don't get me.
8. Anybody knows that I can play cello? I can play it pretty well fyi. ;)
9. I write poems!
10. I think I am a playgirl. Hahahaha.
Oh well thats for now! Can't leak too many secrets!:P
Some people to continue this (I guess I HAVE to put this down too right, as an unstated rule):
1. Yee Ling
2. Hui Zyi
3. Sleepyboy
4. Alston
5. Charlie
6. Sillyboy
7. YOU READING THIS NOW. Hehehe.

Lalalalalalalalalalalala. I love my life now. Not so screwed!=D

Tennis is love, so are you.

Stop playing kite, don't you?

But then, I love the way we are now.

No walls, no lines. :D

Oh well, I should go to sleep now.

Closing my eyes, I feel like sleeping forever.

Or living in an utopia.

A break.

I'm having a break, like now?
Just an hour, before I start on my work again.
Life has been good actually.
I seem to be able to do my work and finish them on time.
But then, doing work isn't enough.
I have to revise, and do more questions.
Especially on mathematics and physics.
I hope to get As for both of them.
Some people might think that I am crazy.
But then again, aim for the sky,
work towards it,
when worse come to worst,
you'll get the tree top, at least.
Somehow, my heart is still attached to you.
I just wanna go wherever you go,
but since I know you can go anywhere,
with your aptitute.
And I'm just an ordinary girl,
with limited knowledge.
I guess I should study hard too so I can stand,
at least, at the same line with you?
Yes. I should do so.
A break is really a break for me,
these days.

Life is full of surprises,
not only that, life is a mission itself,
the legend of my life?
How will I get to find out what it is then?
Somehow, I will chase after you. I guess.

Selfish and demanding, that's me.

I am such a demanding person,
I know that, well.
I am such a selfish girl,
everybody knows that.
If you can't take it,
leave it then.
Cause I don't think I will ever change.
Though I know I need to change.
Oh well.
I guess I have an attitude problem.
Such huge in magnitude.
Some are able to take it,
they go along with it,
and yes,
they discover the real me along the way.
You too, discover me,
and I bet, you know me well enough,
to judge me.
But then, I am still too selfish for you.
Oh well, once again.
I am just a highly spoiled girl,
it is not just a statement,
it is a fact, I guess?
Tired, tired, tired.
I am just too tired these days.
Just realized that nothing is ever constant, but time.
Time is really precious.
Oh well, once again.
Now I know why I am in love with my cello again,
the songs, the melodies, the cello itself,
they're just so beautiful and meaningful.
And yes,
they keep my memories intact.

My cello, somehow, you're not dead,

you're like the silent witness, of whatever happened to me,

when i'm alone, in my room.

You're such melodious,

like a crack, easing my pain away.

You are the same as my tennis racket,

which seems to be able to make me smile,

widely.

Thanks to both of you.

How do I live without you?

My cushion, for all time.

You have always been there for me,
whenever I am up and down.
Such an ordinary guy,
who turns out to be extraordinary in my eyes.
You know me too well, don't you?
Yesterday, was it the first evening we spent together?
Maybe yes, and I am sure that the answer is a yes.
Yesterday was a well spent evening.
The music, the atmosphere, the environment,
everything just fell into places.
Cushion, cushion,
my cushion.
Soft and strong enough to prevent me from hitting the rock bottom.
True enough,
I never get hurt ever since.
Ever since I have a cushion like you,
my friend, my bestie.
God is just being too nice to me.
Cushion, cushion,
I want you to be my cushion,
for all time.
Do not leave me alone.
And I know you won't.
Thank you for being so caring to me all the way.
Life has been better with your presence.
Cushion, cushion, all the time. (:

You've made my day, again.

You have never failed pleasing me.

Oh well, my cushion rocks. :D

Love ya to the core.:P

Somehow I am numb.

You're chasing me,
while you don't know me.
You're such a fool,
and you think you're cool?
Oh my,
if anybody tell you so, it's a lie.
Think you can get me,
catch me!
Think you like me,
that's so stupid of you.
Like a cup of coffee,
imperfectly brewed,
that's your thought of me.
Just one note,
I am numb,
not that I am dumb,
to push you away.
I've told you,
my heart is kept,
safely.
Who do you think you are?
So dare of you,
to step into a territory,
that is not even known to you?
You're such a fool to think that,
a serial player like me,
will fall for you.
Just cause you can get me,
all I want?
You're wrong.
A little boy like you,
won't be able to understand me.
Not that I am biased,
or whatsoever.
What I know is that,
I am available for a chat,
but not more than that.
I am numb,
no matter how hard you try,
you will not be able to bring me down.
Not to mention the fact that you're actually hot.
But, boy,
you're just not my type.
Once again I tell you,
I am numb, and my heart is locked safely.
Only he who knows how to play with the numbers,
can open the box,
and get it.
He may crush it,
but I do not care.
At least,
he will be able to bring me down.
So many people walk pass me these days,
attractive, they are.
But then,
somehow,
I am sick of playing this game called 'love'.
I shall stop for sometime,
and concentrate on whatever is more important.
Somehow I am numb.

You've proven me that our feelings are real for each other.

You've proven me wrong, bout 'easy come easy go'.

It's hard to let go.

Though both of us are letting go each other hands.

I know it's hard.

Somehow, the feeling is still there,

though its just a patch, on a very big piece of a linen cloth.

The red patch is just very small.

Show how small our love was.

However, we're friends now.

Which is better than before.

But somehow, I still hope that one day we'd have feelings for each other again,

which is much deeper than what is called 'love'.

There are some suitable candidates,

why I am not doing anything?

It's cause, partly, half of mine, is still denying.And the rest, is numb.